The only way to really know is to really let it go

On rare occasions, my camera does cool things

Today has not been a good day. It's pretty much that simple. I'm really really frustrated because I just cannot find a pair of jeans that fits decent and looks decent...I don't know what's wrong with me. Seriously, I don't feel that weirdly shaped sooooo shouldn't their be a pair of jeans for me? I hate putting this out there but hey who knows maybe someone will have advice? I have no butt at all but i definitely have hips and thighs? Oh and my calves and everything else are pretty normal....just the hips and thighs area is the biggest and on top of that, apparently my legs are freakishly short because even when i buy short sizes, I have to get them shortened. Anyone else have this problem?

On a lighter note....

I saw Jennifer's body! It was really good actually, I was expecting it to be some stupid movie about megan fox being sexy while killing people but it was actually good!!! I laughed a lot and was really sad when they killed off Colin :( We missed the first 15 minutes haha but that's ok! We pretty much figured it out haha

Do you have someone you would really want to call and just tell all your feelings to? Like, just call when you're having a really bad day and let it all out and wait for their advice? I have one but he's a little bit famous so i'm pretty sure it'll never happen....well unless fate somehow gets on my side someday

I hope you guys have all had a lovely weekend


-Raigan

Oh. Em. Gee.

this one time...I showed off how gangster I really am

So OK I just finished writing part of a script for a skit......in SPANISH!

es muy loco...

I'm in Spanish 2 this year and I really have no idea how that's possible. Sure, I've finished Spanish 1. Sure, this is my third year of Spanish class. But i seriously have no idea what is going on half the time. I just have to get through one more year after this haha let's hope it goes bueno.

Oh and as for homecoming, that's next week. Getting dates screwed up is always the worst. This one time last year my mom thought I had a doctors appointment and had someone drop me off and I didn't have one...it was awful haha. I have weird abandonment and time issues. Like, I cannot stand being early for something. I have to be RIGHT on time or like a few minutes late to feel like everything is OK in the world. Weird?

-Raigan

It's the way you do the things you do that make me fall in love with you

My goodness how hectic life can get once school starts. But then again I feel like most of the time I'm a little lost. I understand that school is still completely new to me but I just hate not feeling like I fit as much as I used to. I guess that's what happens when you get used to being with the same people for nine years...hmph!

I've been thinking a lot lately about the end of the world and it's made me come to some conclusions....
you know how everyone says that everyday could be your last so you should live life to the fullest? Well, if most people believe this, then why do we waste our lives away at jobs we hate or in cold classrooms learning when we should be out there fulfilling dreams?


I don't know...lately I've just felt like I'm not doing anything productive with my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm so lucky and thankful to have all that I have, but at times I just feel like I need to be doing more or giving more or helping more. I want to be in Africa...how does one arrange that?

I also just want to start a career. I know that at 14 that sounds a little crazy, but all I want right now is to do photography for bands. Gosh I want that soooo bad. I understand the importance of education and I'm so grateful that I've had the opportunity to have one, but another piece of me just thinks about how much I could accomplish if I didn't have to go to school everyday.

Well I guess that's my little bit of rambling for the week....

-Raigan


PS: homecoming hair? someone help me...please!

Football season is the best season

Sometimes I really miss people and don't even know it until I'm around them for a while. Well, to everyone I spent time with yesterday....I missed you. It was a good day and I'm really glad that everyone is loving their new schools and what not. Gosh I'm typing this listening to some really cheesy mellow Miley Cyrus music and I'm actually getting a little emotional. What?!

I've been messing around with new makeup. Liquid liner? I don't know, I think it looks pretty good. Hm....I hope everyone's doing well and having a fairly good time at school. I mean really, how good can it be, it's school?

My English class may be showing the Invisible Children documentary and oh my gosh I'm so excited because my teacher was all impressed with ym knowledge. Haha! It was cool, we watched Hotel Rwanda (makes me cry) then had a long conversation about genocide. It was good to hear it being brought up in school because sometimes I feel like people forget that it really is still going on today and that it's not one of those things that's like "wow that's terrible that genocide happened" when it should be "wow genocide IS happening, what can i do to help?"

I love government and English class for sure.

-Raigan

The sweetest suites around

Did I ever mention that I'm loving school? The first football game was last week, and it was a total blast. It was the first time I've ever really felt like myself around all these cool new people, and I'm really thankful that I got to go. Alejandra (the one in the blue and yellow tank top) is probably my best friend so far, she's been nothing but sweet and amazing to me and I'm so excited to see where our friendship goes this year. The first week felt like an eternity, but it's gotten a lot better now that I actually know what's going on most of the time. I'm trying out for cheerleading and I'm really hoping to make it because I just feel like it'd be a great way to get involved. So I guess we'll see where that goes.
Labor Day weekend means the Mizzou Illini game, it also means downtown St.Louis. I'm in love with it. I'm also in love with the park around the Arch, the river front...pretty much everything about St. Louis I love. The first night we went downtown for the battle of the bands which was fun, then we just walked around. Then on Saturday we got up and went to eat and it was raining which just sucked. But, thankfully, it stopped soon enough and we got to go do fun stuff down by the stadium (it's where the Rams play). We went to the arch and the park by there. We took soooooo many pictures and these are just a few, there were a bunch of really good ones but I'm tired for one and for two, there are just wayyyy to many! It was a really good time, and I'm thankful for the rain because of fun puddle pictures. I cannot wait for my senior pictures someday.

-Raigan